Sometimes I Don't Think He Deserves Me...

It's been a long and crazy year. Hell, it's been a long and crazy three years! That's how long now Corey and I have been together. Because I don't blog much about our relationship (which will soon change I promise!) I will fill you in on a few pertinent details in the shortest summary possible...

We began dating three long years ago. After about a year of dating, we both decided it was time to take our relationship to the next level, so, like many couples, we moved in together. We had gone through quite a bit as a young couple. Actually, we probably had more downs than ups. But, our connection was strong and we both pulled through, enough for him to propose a year later.

Here we are, in our third year. It's been quite a process and, at times, a struggle. However, I am happy, our kids are happy, and I believe he is happy (most of the time)...

Sometimes, I don't think he deserves me. Of course, other times I could say I don't deserve him. In my defense, he is the most high maintenance man I have ever met in my life.  You think woman can be a pain in the ass? You haven't met Corey. He has even gained the esteemed nick name of "Princess" and sometimes "Bitch" from me. That's right, when it comes to bitching, he takes home the Gold.

I like to blame a lot of it (as does he) on his OCD. If you've ever known anyone with this condition, no matter how severe, it can be quite frustrating. But, I can say without a doubt that I love him. Actually, thank God I am so low maintenance because I honestly don't think we would make it if I wasn't. Don't get me wrong, I certainly have a lot that he deals with too. I am not perfect by any means. I have bad habits that he despises too.

Anyway, we can divulge into more of that latter.

I have mentioned to him a few times in the last week that I think it's time to set a date. Yep, it's been over a year since he asked those three, dreaded little words. It was a year in October. October 24th to be exact.

Although he blew me off and continued to change the subject, he finally caved and we were to "talk about a date tonight." Finally! Jesus Christ it took you long enough! I thought to myself. His mother even brings it up every once in a while because even she want's it to be solidified!

It's New Years Eve... how could my night be more perfect than to announce to everyone that we had finally settled on a date when we would secure our love and devotion with our vows! Blah, blah, blah...

I am certain that I want to be married on the beach with my toes in the sand. Call me crazy but it's always been my dream wedding. Just me and him, no one else... I threw out a couple of dates. Now he has to think about it! Are you fucking kidding me? "Well", he says, "I told you we would talk about it. You've thrown some dates out there, now I have to think about it."

Noooo! That was the whole point of tonight's discussion; to come to a conclusion! To set a fucking date!  What is so hard about that? Really? Do all men come built with a blatant disregard for what women want? Do all men really have to work this hard to get a fucking clue?

Not even realizing my disdain, he looks at me, as serious as can be and blatantly says, "Can I get a back rub?"

In all honesty, at this point because I love the bastard so much, I can only fill my wine glass and laugh it off knowing not to broach the subject again until either he brings it up or until it once again burrows so deeply in my heart and mind that I cannot help myself. Men most certainly don't like to feel pressured, but seriously, we women do not like to wait for long either...

So tonight, I get no "date" as I had hoped, but hey, he gets no back rub either...

Bah Freaking Humbug! (Well, not really)

Man, this time of year is terrible to try to get anything done. Trying to balance getting together with family, shopping, decorating, work, and not to mention just the everyday crap we all have to deal with. Sometimes I think if it weren't for our kids, I would totally hibernate through the holidays.

Things have changed so much. Family is separated and living their own lives; it's a struggle just to get together. When we do, I feel like Chevy Chase in Christmas Vacation. Merry Disfunctional Christmas!

It feels like a damn chore to get in the holiday spirit at times. But... our family is still our family and when all is said and done, it usually turns out to be a great time.

I guess I just wish it wasn't so frigin' commercialized. The true meaning of Christmas has been clouded with how many gifts sit under the tree. What happened to simply getting together and having some food and spirits? The kids, yes. Children must have gifts to open on Christmas morning. But for us adults, why can't we eat, drink, be merry, and then fat out on the couch?

Instead of running around doing last minute shopping, actually buy a gift (or make one) that comes from your heart! Something that was really thought out regardless of how much money you spent or how much wrapping paper it took to cover it.

This Christmas, I hope you all remember why you celebrate. Spend time with your loved ones, make your children happy, and enjoy the day. Don't stress to impress...

Merry Christmas to you and yours!

Kris Humphries Gay?

Boy, Kim Kardashian and Kris Humphries sure are one huge train wreck after another eh? First, they get divorced after only 72 days, then Kris finds Kim with a naked yoga instructor (Eew), and now the tabloids are claiming their failed marriage on Humphries’ sexuality?

Anything to make a buck I guess. Humphries’ response to all of this? Well, of course he denies being gay, duh, but the man goes one step further to suggest that he was used by the Kardashians as a plot line to their reality T.V. show! Reeeally? I think, at least I hope, the majority has figured this one out Kris, but you can’t possibly think you can lead people to believe that you had no idea about what was going on.

According to TMZ Kris is fighting for an annulment based on fraud. The sad part is he will probably get it because Kim’s dumb ass tweeted she got caught up in taping the show!

This doesn’t mean it was actually fraud. I dare to say Kris knew exactly what he was doing the whole time. However, I can assure you the show’s legal team drafted up iron-clad, non-disclosure agreements that will keep Kris’s hands clean in the eyes of the media and his fans.

Furthermore, the show and everyone involved isn’t stupid enough to risk a claim of fraud and a potential lawsuit.

Kris, you’re no victim in any of this so stop pretending to be. You played into the stardom, fame, and money as much as poor little Kimmy. Honestly, the two of you deserve each other…